Sometimes it is easy to think I am the only person who struggles with persevering. It is in those moments when I am working hard to accomplish a goal or task most important to me when my mind tells me it isn't possible or I don't deserve it.
This month I really only had one task to accomplish. To write my personal statement (500-700 words) for graduate school. I have wanted to reach this point in my life so bad, for so long, I thought I would never make it. Then I woke up and realized it is just around the corner...here for the taking. BAMB!!!
That is all it took to knock me off my confidence block. Can I really do this? Do I really think I can make it into graduate school? Who in their right minds is going to hire me as a doctor?
One day a couple of weeks ago my husband, Kevin, sat me down and said, "I have something to tell you." I said, "Okay. What is it?" "God doesn't need you. If you decide to not do what he is calling you to do, he will raise up someone else to do it. God only wants you to want him so bad you are willing to do what he asks you to do. But the truth, he doesn't need you in order to accomplish his will. So, how bad do you want to do what God has called you to do?" I can't even tell you if I responded. I only know that over the course of the next couple of weeks I have been working on my outlook and how I spend my days. In fact, I finally finished my personal statement for graduate school...and you know what?! I felt like I accomplished something I wanted bad!